Checking In

This week I'm writing the Monday Blog post on Saturday in an effort to stick to my guns with a lot less time in the week than normal. We've got the most delicious long weekend going on here, with the added bonus of every single person in the family having had Friday off as well as Monday for various legit reasons, none of which was "sick."
The only drawback is less time for kicking goals right in the ass.

It's been a pace change kind of week for a number of reasons. The white ants ate part of the bathroom, which this week meant no shower at home until Friday, when we invested in a canvas camping shower and installed that in the corner of the walled garden next to the weeping mulberry tree. This morning I had a hot shower in the rain, partially enfolded by a golden clad mulberry tree in it's autumn finery and I may never shower in the bathroom again. Ever. Talk about silk purses out of sows ears.

A dear friend gave me some meditation music, which is divine.  I'm not much off a meditator, I've got to say. Well, not the sit down and 'om' kind, anyway. But I am the gardener at one of the most incredible locations - Nukara Farm - which means me alone in the bush and semi-bush a lot of the time I'm there, with the creek and the frogs and birds and the wind in the trees. So between work and the studio I figure meditation comes more as a by-product into my life, and I'm happy with that. But the music has added to the pace change, and I'm grateful. 

There was also the completion and delivery of a commission, which takes the pressure off a little bit (not to mention the satisfaction of a happy customer).

And then there's the goals, and the question, "Am I being Accountable to myself?"

It's been 4 weeks now, so monthly check in time. Is this working for me?

The short answer is yes. The long answer is, in the last 4 weeks I've knocked jobs on the head that I've been putting off for the last 2 years. I've sat my backside down and put in the work. Not only do I have something to show for it, my workspace is alive with possibility, where before it wasn't so conducive to letting things flow. Now, it's the place I want to be. 

The goals themselves are slowly being achieved, though sometimes not in the way I first thought. Sometimes I set a goal for the week but when I sit down to get it done I find that something else needs to happen first. So sometimes those goals get carried over to the next week, but that doesn't mean that the achievement isn't there. Being flexible, yet still being honest with myself about my genuine progress seems to be a key to this whole process. 

I still need to catch up with some important people, but I've realised it's not that I don't want to talk to them, it's that where my work is at is not quite where I need it to be before I see these folks. I could talk to them now, and explain an idea, or I can bog in and do the work and then I can show them. I want to show them something real that they can get excited about, like I am.

Yet again, it comes back to doing the work. 

Crossing over from May to June was interesting in a positive way. As well as the weekly goals, I was able to sit down and map out some whole-month goals, and some whole-year ones.

A direction is forming. There are collaborations of a sort on the horizon, and ideas that are becoming plans and all this growth feels amazing. 

There are heaps of times every day where I think," Holy Fuck I don't have a clue where to start with that!!" There are lots of times where I feel like a roo-tick on a pig dog; I can only see a little bit of the landscape and I am holding on like holy hell and that's all I can do. Sometimes I wonder who's driving this crazy wagon?! And there are lessons. Every day there are lessons. 

One month in, Accountability is working. I'm working. And it's pretty awesome, really.

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